2015-03-28

Saturday events

Saturday morning I tried to get the boys to go for a walk with me in the woods. 
That was easier said than done. Smartphones has taken over my children's lives. Everyone's lives actually. Mine too. I'm pretty addicted to my phone, I say with shame. 
How would we ever survive without our phones. The constant access to everything. Social media has corrupted our lives. What happened to being outside, playing? Breathe fresh air and get some vitamin D. Use your muscles and not only your fingers. 
Anyway, we got to the woods and it took approximately 15 min for my youngest to start moaning about leg pain due to walking. Come on now..really?
To push my patience even further he had a stick that he smashed on to another tree, it broke of course and one piece flew and hit me in the back of my head. 
I then lost it. Crazy mom in da woods. 
Times like that I wish I have better self control. To make matters worse Im on my period. And y'all know that messing with a girl on her period is not clever. 
I sent the boys home. They were delighted to say the least. I continued my walk for a bit. 

Razmus and I went to Tony's later that arvo. Had dinner and drinks. Luqas stayed at his dad's. 
Viv came over too. So we chatted and danced the night away. 
As always I had a blast. Played hide n seek with the kids. 
Note to self: do not abuse snapchat when consuming alcoholic beverages. 
Or leave your phone on the table for friends to get full access to it. 

Viv and I ended up in bed close to 4.30am. Woke up at 7am but luckily I dozed off again for a few hours. 

Spent most of the day there. Had the kids wash my car. Not a great result but I appreciate the effort. 

I'm pondering now over if I should have a toast and then go to bed. I have work tomorrow and I need to be on top of things. Lawd knows what kinda food they want me to make in the morning. 

I'm sitting here by myself now as Raz went to bed. And I just think a lot. Too much maybe. About the past and people in it. About my future, how I want things to be etc. 
We all miss someone. Whether it was someone who died, someone who walked out of your life, a best friend that moved away, the boy/girl who broke your heart, etc.
There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, that you wish you can take them out of your dream and hug them for real..

Dream what you want, go wherever you want to go, because you have only one life and one change to do the things you want to do. Say it before it's too late. Do what makes you happy. Be with the person that makes you happy. The person you can't get out of your head. 

The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything that comes their way.

You can’t go well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Forgiveness is not for the weak, it's the attribute of the strong.  




2015-03-22

Yay....

I did it. I finally did it. And man it felt good. 
Nooo, not adult relation. You have a dirty mind! I went dancing. Last time I went out clubbing was in Phuket. In early November. So well overdue as you understand. 
I was working Friday but Friday's are the best day to go out. In my opinion. Then you have Saturday to recuperate and Sunday your fine so you can go to work on Monday all fresh and ready for next Friday. :) 
I got Anna in the arvo and went to mine. We had dinner and of course wine. 
It was so nice to sit and talk absolute crap about nothing and Everything. 
Had great laughs and walks down memory lane.  
We had such a great time at mine that we didn't go down town until after midnight. Ended up at glow. Great music but the DJ was a dick. Real bad attitude and unfortunately Sweden has not embraced songs that plays in Phuket or Australia. Not yet anyway.
My ex texted me. Of all the freaking times. And I'm proud I didn't reply. I have OCD in replying. That and being drunk. Not a good combination. But like Ive always said. I'm strong minded and if I can't control myself and my actions then I'm lost and weak.
 When we follow our hearts; a weight lifts. The sun shines a little brighter. And, for a brief moment at least, we find a little peace.

We stayed until the club closed and then we took a cab home. Had another wine and chatted away. Anna tried to make coffee. Not a good idea when pissed. 

I must be a great person to sleep next to. Even though I have two empty beds they always choose to sleep in my bed. Hahahahaha. 

Woke up after a few hours and we were hungover. Poor Anna, she had the Biggest headache. 
Had breaky and the just watched ink master and all kinds of shit on TV. 
How come you get so insanely hungry and crave fatty food when hungover? 
I fought the urge to get a pizza. I made Mexican food  instead. I'm very very proud of myself for getting off the sofa and actually cook.  
Spent the rest of the day, after I drove Anna home, in my onesie. Hungry, cold and pathetic as you should be after a good night out. 




Yeah we ended up putting some pic and videos up. Lawd oh lawd!!