Sometimes I feel like Im in a prison, and there's only one way out.... I feel like my life is mundane, each day exactly like the next, every emotion, every conversation, so completely draining.
Im dealing with new emotions the last week or so. I've had these kinds of emotions before and I'm not really sure what to do with them. I have mates, but no one I can talk to about this, no one who would understand. How can I truly expect anyone else to understand if I don't understand it myself?
Or when I'm torn on how to approach it.
Been intouch with my friend "bogan" and even though he is a complete fuckwit ( I say that in the nicest way ) he always manage to say stupid stuff to lift my spirit. Shame he is miles and miles away. I wish I had the money to go see him. Maybe something magical will happen and I get tons of cash coming my way. Not likely.....
Perth is still cloudy and in my opinion cold atm. Had rain and thunderstorms the past two days. I have been under house arrest. Only thing keeping me sane and occupied is my bf Jax ( thinking he is my bf might not make me out to be very sane at all ) and the crew of SoA and a new series I've come to enjoy very much. Breaking bad. Check it out.
Laying in bed watching the Lightning and listening to the thunder is quite relaxing. During the night that is. Daytime I'd prefere it to be dry and sunny. Times like these makes me miss Phuket so much. And I miss my boys. I miss them so bad. I try not to think too much or write about them too much to keep my heart from bleeding. Self preservation has become one of my special trades.
I just made a homemade pesto
And I used basil, garlic, Parmesan and olive oil. Now I'm burping pesto. Not cool. And I just noticed my font has changed and I have no clue on how to fix it. I'm writing on my iPhone. This is highly annoying. Haha..
Can't wait to cuddle these awesome boys.....
