FINALE!!!

OK. tonight dear readers is the finale of the Swedish melodyfestival. That means champagne, glitter, high heels and dress. And also a possibly drunk Alixandra at the end of the night. That is a good night. Spend it with good friends. Dinner, sauna, good show on TV, wine and heaps of laughing.
Laughing is so good for your soul and heart. I should dye my hair too I think. Like pink or dark purple. I just feel like doing some crazy shit today. I cant get inked to blow steam so I need something else. I'll have to ponder on that. But first I have the privelige to do the laundry. Oh the joys of being a singel mom. And the excitment of doing the washing up after brekkie. Let's not forget the vaccuming of the flat...for my own amusement. Last but not least the cleaning of the bathroom. Yes, the bathroom and I have history. So I need to clean it with the care and respect it deserves. My life my life.....

Snap chat battle is also on later. I got completly bombarded with them last night. My friends in Phuket sending snaps of them being out drinking and dancing. I HATE YOU!!!
So guess what you hungover morons. Payback time!!! Ima snap chat yous alllllll night.
Hehehehehe

 

Being strong doesn’t mean you have to stay and fight all the battles and petty arguments that come your way. Being strong means you don’t have to stay and respond to rude remarks. Don’t resort in throwing insults back at them. It’s what they want. Keep your dignity and don’t lower yourself to their level. True strength is being adult enough to walk away from the nonsense with your head held high. Even tho it can prove to be flammin hard.

Thursday rant

You're just gonna have to go with your gut. And maybe, just maybe, that'll take you right where you were supposed to be. Where are we suppose to be? Do you know where you are supposed to be? I know where I want to be and how I want it to be. It's just the struggle of getting there, if you ever can get there. Other people are involved and that makes it so much harder. But I'm walking towards the light, tho sometimes I lose it from my sight. If you are not willing to keep looking for light in the darkest of places without stopping even when it seems impossible, you will never succeed. 

Life.....What do we take away? Which pieces will haunt us? End us? Hurt us? Inspire us? 

How much are can a person accept and when is it time to start over? 

Have you heard the saying- without darkness you can't see the stars shine.

Second chance.....

This weekend has been mentally draining. I've had a couple of positive things happen and I've had some, not negative really...more of a soul search moment. Getting in touch with yourself and what you feel. And that's hard. It's hard to admit things. Especially to the most important person......yourself. 

I've had some personal issues the past week and hopefully it's now on its way to get sorted out. I don't like having negative energy in my life. I don't like being negative. 

I had my friends Anna, Baba and Sam over for drinks and dinner Friday evening.

Funnily Enough another friend of mine I haven't seen for over a year called and wanted to come by. That was Fantastic. 

We had a catch up while I was cooking and getting myself ready ie makeup and hair. She knows me since way back and she's used to me running around like a half naked crazy person with a towel on my head. 

Unfortunately she couldn't stay for dinner.

Baba came later as he had work. 

We had a good time. Singstar of course.

I made the mistake of accedently send my ex bf in England a msg asking about GH. 

It was meant for someone else. I've done that before and it shits me. I don't like the touchscreens especially when you have long nails. Pushing the wrong thing can get devastating consequences. I accidentally sent a picture to someone that was meant for someone else. Luckily my friend just laughed at me and deleted it. I don't get embarrassed easily but I have to say that qualifies on my top 5. 

I got a reply of that GH mishap and we talked for a while. It was nice ( and weird ) to talk in a way we used to. About the good times, where the heart belongs. 

Anyway......

Saturday was spent as usual at Tony and Malin's. I was feeling a bit rough from the friday activities so I chilled. Had a couple of wines and watched the melodyfestival.

Spent the night and went home early Sunday morning. I kinda missed my bed and my laptop with Vikings on it. :) 

It looks like I'm not gonna make it to Phuket for Songkran. And honestly that sucks. I've been hanging to go for months now. I really miss my friends. And getting messages that they miss me and asking me to hurry up is not making me feel better. The price on tickets are too high atm. I will not have the money to fund it. The trip in whole I mean. Airfare is ridiculous. Shame on you airlines for having them prices at a time no one wants to go to phuket anyway. I want to go!!! 

Hopefully I get that job so I can start bring in some cash and save up to go maybe come summer. A great birthday present to myself. 

Honestly I'm quite knackered so I'll wrap this very uninteresting post of my weekend up. 

Hope y'all had a good weekend too

Happy international women's day.