Instead of writing more I am leving you with these songs, which I relate to very much.
Love it when lyrics speaks for you. And in this case even some of the videos...
So I guess I´ll talk to yous later.
Happy Valentine´s day!!
Xoxoxoxoxoxox
2014-02-14
Clearing my head
Instead of writing more I am leving you with these songs, which I relate to very much.
Love it when lyrics speaks for you. And in this case even some of the videos...
2014-02-13
Units and valentine's
Today I went and looked at two units. I brought my mate Tony for support and expertise.
One unit was a 2 bedroom unit on ground floor. Which means I get a garden. That means BBQ in summer. Newly renovated bathroom and kitchen. A cozy unit that I liked. Felt like I could get comfy there. Downside....smaller unit. And east Gothenburg. Far from work.
The other one was a 4 bedroom unit. 3 floors up. The Construction plan were pretty cool. Two toilets and two entrances. It was frumpy and worn down tho. The lady that had lived there moved in in -78. So imagine the wallpaper and floors. I saw great potential and also a lot of work. And money.
Rent is dirt cheap so that's good. The price to buy it was a bit much considering the amount of work that has to be done. It would've been nice to have a man to help me out with these kind of things. Not that I am totally clueless with painting and stuff but you know the heavy lifting and knocking down walls aren't my thing. Plus I am a bit lazy. And I am a girl. I don't like breaking my nails. I'd rather use my nails for something more pleasurable.
I will run this by a mate of mine. He is a carpenter and I'd like his advice. And help to be honest.
Board for work...sound fair don't it? Gets his own room and entrance. I'll have a think about that, it is going to be heaps of money. But if done the right way it could easily up the worth with 175-250.000 sek. But like I said I need help from a guy. That knows what he's doing.
But I really liked the smaller one. So fingers crossed that I'll get it.
Oh...I bough something online today and I got all excited to get it this weekend or early next week. Then it turns out they were fully booked and the earliest time was on the 25.th. DAMN!!!
Note-to-self Check BEFORE you buy online crap
I had a meeting with my boss yesterday. I got a raise. Thank you very much!! She thinks I'm doing a good job so she hopes to keep me. Well keep giving me raises and I am all yours.
Tomorrow is Friday. And Valentine's day. I thought my Valentine's would be different then it turns out to be. I know it's just a day like every other day.
you shouldn't have just one day a year where you do something special for the one you love.
That is kinda bullshit hey. Unfortunately guys haven't realized that. Which is too bad. They would be sooo much happier in the relationship if they did. Boy gets very happy if girl is happy. End of story.
But I am a sucker for anniversaries and special occasions. My ex was real good remembering that.
One of the few things he was good at actually.
Last year I spent Valentine's in Koh Samui with my girl Rachel to get a breather from a guy that I was involved with. Ended up on the phone half the night instead due to him calling. Was not part of the breathing cutting loose plan. I remember that night very well. And the conversation too.
I have slept real badly the past week. So I am turning in early tonight. Hope Mr.Sandman wont have me counting sheep tonight.
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Yes this is very true. Very true.....
One unit was a 2 bedroom unit on ground floor. Which means I get a garden. That means BBQ in summer. Newly renovated bathroom and kitchen. A cozy unit that I liked. Felt like I could get comfy there. Downside....smaller unit. And east Gothenburg. Far from work.
The other one was a 4 bedroom unit. 3 floors up. The Construction plan were pretty cool. Two toilets and two entrances. It was frumpy and worn down tho. The lady that had lived there moved in in -78. So imagine the wallpaper and floors. I saw great potential and also a lot of work. And money.
Rent is dirt cheap so that's good. The price to buy it was a bit much considering the amount of work that has to be done. It would've been nice to have a man to help me out with these kind of things. Not that I am totally clueless with painting and stuff but you know the heavy lifting and knocking down walls aren't my thing. Plus I am a bit lazy. And I am a girl. I don't like breaking my nails. I'd rather use my nails for something more pleasurable.
I will run this by a mate of mine. He is a carpenter and I'd like his advice. And help to be honest.
Board for work...sound fair don't it? Gets his own room and entrance. I'll have a think about that, it is going to be heaps of money. But if done the right way it could easily up the worth with 175-250.000 sek. But like I said I need help from a guy. That knows what he's doing.
But I really liked the smaller one. So fingers crossed that I'll get it.
Oh...I bough something online today and I got all excited to get it this weekend or early next week. Then it turns out they were fully booked and the earliest time was on the 25.th. DAMN!!!
Note-to-self Check BEFORE you buy online crap
I had a meeting with my boss yesterday. I got a raise. Thank you very much!! She thinks I'm doing a good job so she hopes to keep me. Well keep giving me raises and I am all yours.
Tomorrow is Friday. And Valentine's day. I thought my Valentine's would be different then it turns out to be. I know it's just a day like every other day.
you shouldn't have just one day a year where you do something special for the one you love.
That is kinda bullshit hey. Unfortunately guys haven't realized that. Which is too bad. They would be sooo much happier in the relationship if they did. Boy gets very happy if girl is happy. End of story.
But I am a sucker for anniversaries and special occasions. My ex was real good remembering that.
One of the few things he was good at actually.
Last year I spent Valentine's in Koh Samui with my girl Rachel to get a breather from a guy that I was involved with. Ended up on the phone half the night instead due to him calling. Was not part of the breathing cutting loose plan. I remember that night very well. And the conversation too.
I have slept real badly the past week. So I am turning in early tonight. Hope Mr.Sandman wont have me counting sheep tonight.
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2014-02-12
Within my heart...
When I hear the word forgiveness I think of many points in my life where I’ve had to forgive someone, big times and even the small ones. But the thing with forgiveness is it’s easy to give out freely when we feel like that person deserves it. It gets harder and more of an issue with our hearts when we believe that person doesn’t deserve forgiveness. It’s our decision to decide if we want to forgive or not.
There are so many stories about people forgiving others: parents, partners, friends. But one of the hardest things I have ever had to do is forgive myself. I don't know if I have achieved that yet. Ongoing process I reckon. I am working on it. But I also fear it. With that said there is someone else that I'm struggling to forgive too. I don't know which one is more important as it weighs equally heavy in my heart. But for different reasons. Cannot stretch that enough.
Fear is the most primal of emotions. It can linger as a memory burned into one’s mind, of a child taken too soon or burrow into one’s soul, as self-doubt over not being good enough. But the one thing we fear the most, is the unknown.
Forgiveness isn’t something you can just do and call it a day, it’s something you’ve truly got to mean. When you don’t forgive, you are holding the pain and hurt and all that builds up inside of you, and that carries further than just a day or two. It’s not meant to be like this. I know people can do some really horrible and damaging things. I’ve been hurt and have hurt others, and it saddens me, but forgiveness is a huge part of surviving.
I’ve been lied to and hurt by some very close people in my life…some lies just made me stop breathing for a second or five.
I wanted to disband them from my life and spit in their faces.
I had to make the decision, as we are blessed with free choice. And decided to let some of it go and look forward. what I could gain from that? I could gain a life that I want, with the one I want.
I tried to trust one person that has betrayed and lied to me many times. Which was a huge thing for me to do. And I repeated yesterday's mistakes. My bad....
I can try and write my frustration off here as much as I can but it's hard when you feel undone with a situation. I kinda feel helpless cuz I cant really strangle my laptop can I.. :) Hahahaha....
Ima do like Shakira and leave a note on my bedpost. See if that helps. Or put it in as a reminder on my iPhone to go off every other hour.
Ding-ding-ding.....What I tend to do when it comes to you I see only the good, selective memory. So freakishly true that is. Funny how the mind works.
They say let he who is without sin cast the first stone. And to be without sin requires absolute forgiveness. But when your memories are freshly opened wounds, forgiveness is the most unnatural of human emotions.
Leaving you with a song that reminds me of well...me.
Not necessarily a good thing I might add.
There are so many stories about people forgiving others: parents, partners, friends. But one of the hardest things I have ever had to do is forgive myself. I don't know if I have achieved that yet. Ongoing process I reckon. I am working on it. But I also fear it. With that said there is someone else that I'm struggling to forgive too. I don't know which one is more important as it weighs equally heavy in my heart. But for different reasons. Cannot stretch that enough.
Fear is the most primal of emotions. It can linger as a memory burned into one’s mind, of a child taken too soon or burrow into one’s soul, as self-doubt over not being good enough. But the one thing we fear the most, is the unknown.
Forgiveness isn’t something you can just do and call it a day, it’s something you’ve truly got to mean. When you don’t forgive, you are holding the pain and hurt and all that builds up inside of you, and that carries further than just a day or two. It’s not meant to be like this. I know people can do some really horrible and damaging things. I’ve been hurt and have hurt others, and it saddens me, but forgiveness is a huge part of surviving.
I’ve been lied to and hurt by some very close people in my life…some lies just made me stop breathing for a second or five.
I wanted to disband them from my life and spit in their faces.
I had to make the decision, as we are blessed with free choice. And decided to let some of it go and look forward. what I could gain from that? I could gain a life that I want, with the one I want.
I tried to trust one person that has betrayed and lied to me many times. Which was a huge thing for me to do. And I repeated yesterday's mistakes. My bad....
I can try and write my frustration off here as much as I can but it's hard when you feel undone with a situation. I kinda feel helpless cuz I cant really strangle my laptop can I.. :) Hahahaha....
Ima do like Shakira and leave a note on my bedpost. See if that helps. Or put it in as a reminder on my iPhone to go off every other hour.
Ding-ding-ding.....What I tend to do when it comes to you I see only the good, selective memory. So freakishly true that is. Funny how the mind works.
They say let he who is without sin cast the first stone. And to be without sin requires absolute forgiveness. But when your memories are freshly opened wounds, forgiveness is the most unnatural of human emotions.
Leaving you with a song that reminds me of well...me.
Not necessarily a good thing I might add.
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| Dennis and I singing a Bon Jovi song at Elvis. F.U.N!!! |
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| guys from the Stag I organized. It was pretty wild. Stupid boys!! |
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| Good times!! Really good times. |
If the shoe fits.....
A compulsive liar will resort to telling lies, regardless of the situation. Again, everyone lies from time to time but for a compulsive liar, telling lies is routine. It becomes a habit - a way of life.
Simply put, for a compulsive liar, lying becomes second nature.
Not only do compulsive liars bend the truth about issues large and small, they take comfort in it. Lying feels right to a compulsive liar. Telling the truth, on the other hand, is difficult and uncomfortable.
And like any behavior which provides comfort and an escape from discomfort (i.e., alcohol, drugs, sex), lying can become addictive and hard to stop.
Making matters even more complicated, compulsive lying is often a symptom of a much larger personality disorder, which only makes the problem more difficult to resolve for example, narcissistic personality disorder and borderline personality disorder.
Unfortunately, compulsive lying is hard for the person involved to see, but it hurts those who are around it. Compulsive lying, if not addressed, can easily ruin a relationship. And it has.....
The term, “liar, liar pants on fire” takes on new meaning when dealing with a liar. This person may not be completely rooted in reality, believing the lies they tell, often in an effort to remedy low self esteem. Unlike telling a few fibs here and there, or slightly exaggerating the truth once in a while, the pathological liar lies about literally every aspect of his or her life. From when was the last time you had sexual encounter of any kind to talking about getting things sorted, a liar feels that every bit of communication has strategic meaning positioned for his or her gain.
Being lied to on a consistent basis is not only frustrating but also disrespectful to the other person.
Every guy can have a girlfriend, but it takes a real man to treat his girlfriend right.
Never lie to her. It shows that you don't trust her, and more importantly, will result in her not trusting you. If you love her why would you lie to her in the first place..
Make her feel like the best PERSON in your life. She probably is!
Understand that little things mean a lot! A love note, rose, sweet text message or things like this just to let her know you are thinking of her and care for her. With some girls, it is a good idea to text or call her regularly before you go to sleep and regularly in the morning when you wake up. It will make her feel special.
Sorry...just recent events that made me wanna share this.
And if the shoe fits...youre a shit cunt!! And karma will make you her bitch!!
Have a great day!!
Simply put, for a compulsive liar, lying becomes second nature.
Not only do compulsive liars bend the truth about issues large and small, they take comfort in it. Lying feels right to a compulsive liar. Telling the truth, on the other hand, is difficult and uncomfortable.
And like any behavior which provides comfort and an escape from discomfort (i.e., alcohol, drugs, sex), lying can become addictive and hard to stop.
Making matters even more complicated, compulsive lying is often a symptom of a much larger personality disorder, which only makes the problem more difficult to resolve for example, narcissistic personality disorder and borderline personality disorder.
Unfortunately, compulsive lying is hard for the person involved to see, but it hurts those who are around it. Compulsive lying, if not addressed, can easily ruin a relationship. And it has.....
The term, “liar, liar pants on fire” takes on new meaning when dealing with a liar. This person may not be completely rooted in reality, believing the lies they tell, often in an effort to remedy low self esteem. Unlike telling a few fibs here and there, or slightly exaggerating the truth once in a while, the pathological liar lies about literally every aspect of his or her life. From when was the last time you had sexual encounter of any kind to talking about getting things sorted, a liar feels that every bit of communication has strategic meaning positioned for his or her gain.
Being lied to on a consistent basis is not only frustrating but also disrespectful to the other person.
Every guy can have a girlfriend, but it takes a real man to treat his girlfriend right.
Never lie to her. It shows that you don't trust her, and more importantly, will result in her not trusting you. If you love her why would you lie to her in the first place..
Make her feel like the best PERSON in your life. She probably is!
Understand that little things mean a lot! A love note, rose, sweet text message or things like this just to let her know you are thinking of her and care for her. With some girls, it is a good idea to text or call her regularly before you go to sleep and regularly in the morning when you wake up. It will make her feel special.
Sorry...just recent events that made me wanna share this.
And if the shoe fits...youre a shit cunt!! And karma will make you her bitch!!
Have a great day!!
2014-02-09
Weekend
Friday I met up with my girl Johanna. Haven't seen her in ages. We decided to go to Moon, a well-renowned Thai place. Quite expensive for the food they served.
And well.....just because.
Bad ass boys like Jax!!
I got to speak some Thai. Lol. Was fun.
He commented on my pronounciation.
In Phuket most Thais say for instance Aloy ( taste nice ) as oppose to how you really should pronaunce it which is Aroy.
I said I lived in Phuket and he smiled and said he knew people spoke differently there. Lazy :)
We ended up sitting with 4 really weird guys. 15 min into our dinner one told us about how he shit himself when he was in India a while back. Great dinner conversation. I reckon they were high as.
Kept asking us if we wanted to roll up a joint with them. One looked like Ginger Osama bin Laden. With round Lennon glasses.
So Jojo and I excused ourselves after they tagged along to the pub. Not our kind of people you could say.
Took the tram home. That has not happened for a loooong time. But it was ok. I had a chat with Max all the way home. He's Apperanly back in Oz for a gig and then back to the states to play with Macklemore. He promised to get a photo or a video msg to Luqas. That would be pretty cool. Cheers Maxy :)
Saturday I had a three hour long job interview. It was haaard to get outta bed, Let me tell you. But that Job could be good for me in the future. So I did what I had to do. Heaps of water and mascara.
In the evening I went to my bff's house
Melody festival no.2. Pink drinks and great company.
As last time the host and hostess sucked. I don't understand how the largest tv show in Sweden can be produced that badly. Luckily I had the QX event gala to watch straight after. Which was great. Talk about a huge production. Great host and great artists. Change of clothes, sparkles, hats and nudity. What more can you ask for?? And two people I know were there being nominated. I modeled for their clothes store and they run a HBTQ club in Gothenburg once a month. Drag queens and sparkles. Love it!! If you haven't been, you should go. Park Lane. Last Friday of every month. Club Queer.
Anyway, back to melody festival.
My first choice did not go through. A pretty girl with tattoos and piercings and blind pink hair. A girl like me. But nooo...the Swedish people voted for fucken yellow suit with palm trees and ugly ass red cowboy boots. Really?!
Maybe most of the voters had smoked a joint? Don't see any other reason why they would vote as shitty.
How awesome is she??!!
To all you non-Swedish people...this is an embarrassment.
Night turned out to be good anyway. I always have a good time at my mates house. Thank you for having me and finally give me my own space in the bathroom ( that is how often I'm at their house. )
And well.....just because.
Bad ass boys like Jax!!
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