Pictures spring 2014

A conflicted heart feeds on doubt and confusion. 
It will make you question your path, your tactics, your motives. 
When you stare ahead and darkness is all you see, only reason and determination can pull you back from the abyss.

My path lead me back to Phuket. And it was in many ways the best for me. I found myself surrounded by amazing friends. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. They really are my extended family.  Nicky, Rachel and Falida especially. 
I love you dearly. 

Hope you enjoy my picture collage of my time in Phuket this spring.......
( Falida, last song I dedicate to....tadaaaa )

About time....

Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.

A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning. Move forward, away from who and what's been hurting us, lying to us and holding us down. 

My brother had his birthday Monday. Had too much to do that day but I went to his after work yesterday. 

Went for a walk with Optimus to the boys' school to pick them up from mother tongue class. Had a quick chat and then went home. I can't wait for it to be next week so I can get help to get these god damn shelves up. I'm sick of them now hey. 

Im missing Phuket already. I do hope this job thing comes through. Fingers crossed y'all. I miss going to massages and dinners with Falida and I miss the crazy fun things me and Nicky did. Miss my beach walks. My friends in general. Not that I don't have great friends here because I do. It's just I feel out of place here. Or maybe I just have to get use to the way of living here again. Get my new place in order. I'm well on my way. :) 

Weekend-days off?!

Friday and I have been working. Nackered but in good spirit. 

Went home and made chicken lemon roast. Yum! Unpacked some boxes and found things I didn't want to see. Or find. Brought back painful memories. I want to get rid of it at the same time I want to keep it. Bittersweet. 

Had a cozy evening with the boys. That made me feel better. I love my children.

Had a very long Skype talk. My Internet credit ran out. Haha!! That has not happened to me before. So nice to sit on the balcony and it's still warm. I hope I didn't wake anyone. They must of thought I was nuts. Speaking English to myself on the balcony. I had my earphones in. So they only heard me yapping away. 

Went to bed at 5 am. My brand new lovely bed. 

Saturday I cleaned the old apartment and gave back the keys. Felt good. 

My car is making weird noises so I need to have that checked out. 

Money money money....that I don't have. But I need my car. My naam kaeng. Race Naam ft Alixandra. 

Great team!! 

Got a couple of msgs from Finland again. Change… We don’t like it, we fear it. But we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. It hurts to grow. Anybody who tells you it doesn’t, is lying. But here’s the truth: Sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes, change is good. Sometimes, change is… everything.

Today I have been working. Looong day. I'm absolutely nackered. Luqas is sick too. So I between phone calls I managed to work. I felt so stressed as I wanted be at home with him. I hope I got great pay since it's a Sunday. Sundays are then day for rest and chill time. Pizza time and movie time. :) 

Anna came over late arvo. We chatted and had Mother's Day cake. Yes, it's Mother's Day today in Sweden. 

It's always nice to catch up with good friends. I told her about Phuket and she filled me in on her life. A lot has happened in 7 weeks. Heaps!!

I am gonna have an early night tonight. 

Now that the hockey game is over and Russia won I can go to bed with a smile on my face.