Bored...

Going through my computer and hard drive and went down memory lane. Gonna share some pic with you .

 Me and my brother on his 18.th birthday ( I´m pregnant 6 months )

 My old wonderful backyard, me still preggers. My mom.

 Me, Luqas and auntie Hilda

 Me and my friend getting ready to go out

Bar premier. Limón and redbull = hazardous

 Yes, I was once married...

Halloweenparty and my brother thinks he is really cool.

Another awesome party at Peter´s parents house.

Me and Razmus

 The most wonderful boys in the world

 Another halloween party at my house

 Peter and Linda´s wedding. Too bad they too got divorced

 Me and my kaka at the wedding reception. That was an intresting night.

 My brother and I on my birthday. We actually got alone back in the day..

 How boring would easter be if you didn´t dress up??

In Greece with my kaka. Those were good times.

 Drinking champagne and talking on the phone are my two favorite things.

Out to a club. Rock n´roll....

Dancing at your kids kindergaarten is a must if it´s midsummer.

 It´s ok to get a little drunk on special occations. Wild n crazy baby

Me and my mom. She could be really awesome when she wants to.

 A work night at IndoChine. That was a fun night.

 Me and some Bogans ( Nick, Dean and Stephen) in Samui. Rained a lot.


Ok. Im not gonna bore you with anymore pictures. I had a blast looking at them and going down memory lane. I have had a good life. Can´t complain too much. Some assholes and bitches have come through but then again we all have had or still do have them in our lives.

Wishing you all a great weekend......

XX

Miss my boys

Today I really miss my boys. If I could I would fly back to Sweden to see them. It sucks not having them here. Wish my new job pays well enough so I can bring them over for a while. School fees here are pretty expensive.
Dear readers...make sure you choose wisely who´s gonna be the parent of your child. There are so many assholes out there.

Holiday

My good friend Rachel is leaving Phuket in a few days to go to Australia and live for a couple of months. That sucks. I am really going to miss her. We have become so close in just a few months. Arrgghh...don´t want her to go.
However it has got me thinking. I might go for a holiday to Oz to visit friends. It´s closer to go from Thailand than if  I would´ve gone from Sweden. Cheaper too. And I do have places to stay when I get there. Gold coast ( Surfer´s paradise) and Melbourne. I haven´t seen my friend Nick in 7 months so that would be awesome to do. Max is coming here in July so I´m gonna see him anyway ( but feel free to house me anyway dude lol ) I think my girl friends from Patong are back in Brisbane and Sydney(?) so I will visit them too.

I need a holiday and break from here. It´s too much going on atm and seeing some friends away from the crazyness might shed some light on issues I´ve got. Then I´ll come back seeing things all clear and fresh as a lily.

I banged my knee on a dashboard yesterday. That was stupid. Now it hurts and I need to go to the pharmacy to get a new wrap. The one´s Ivé got are so worn out.

Went to a beach the other day with a friend. Nai Thon. The drive there was nice. Massive houses surrounded by mouintains. Fantastic. Made me fall in love with Thailand all over again. The beach was really nice as well. Lots of Russians though. They are everywhere. It´s a shame I didn´t learn Russian. I would  have a field day if I did. Thanx Grandma.....

I burnt my nose yesterday when I went to Phi phi. And I have sunnies marks around my eyes. Beautiful...
Remady that today. If only ms:Rachel can wake up......

Purgatory....

I pull away to face the pain. I close my eyes and drift away. Over the fear that I will never find a way to heal my soul. And I will wander 'till the end of time

I can't go on living this way and I can't go back the way I came. Chained to this fear that I will never find a way to heal my soul .And I will wander....

Change, open your eyes to the light. I denied it all so long, Say goodbye, Release me, I can't hold on.
Deliver me from sorrow's hold. My heart is broken....

Please, please forgive me, but i won´t be home again. Maybe someday you'll look up and barely concious say to no one "isn't something missing?" You wont cry for my absence I know.
You forgot me long ago. Am i that unimportant? Am i so insignificant?


Even though i'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me, not now.  And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness in me. 

So I have nothing left and all I feel is this cruel wanting. We've been falling for all this time
And now, I'm lost in paradise.

New part time job

Ok, as promised I will tell you about my new job. It´s an event job. The company arranges stag parties around asia. No, NOT escort sevice. We actually have the right to leave the party if anyone suggests anything. It´s a really popular event. So I´m hired as a chef and hostess. Let me tell you guys that it was so much fun. Hard work a couple of days before to prepare and stressful, yes, but oh so much fun.

The guys were awesome. And most important...they loved my cooking. :)

We have been around all of Phuket getting things for the party. Had to rent a car to get everything done as fast as possible. Me and Natalia ( a new friend of mine ) tried to be as efficient as we could. And we did a pretty good job too. Done in like 5 hours.

Natt´s parking skills is debatable.

Got heaps of alcohol and food. The budget was quite high in my opinion. A very high end company that knows how to take care of the boys. The villa we had the party in was insane. And we have a couple of other houses too on Millionair row in Kamala. Just saying!

I cooked a lot of food. Took me a while but it was fun. Haven´t cooked for a party in ages.

Adam, the buck, was very nice. All the boys were nice actually. So it was a good night. Did not end up going to Patong as planed. The boys wanted to have a house party. We had our own DJ so of course they wanted to stay. Too bad because it was a private show booked at Suzy Wong´s. I have never been there. So I was a bit bumed out.

The boys had a coriander fight in the kitchen. It was coriander everywhere. It reaked of it in the house. I am VERY happy I´m not the one cleaning that house the day after.

Adam also decided to put my swim gear on and prance around the house and go for a swim. I almost pissed myself laughing.

We have more bookings so I´ll be doing some more cooking soon. Now it´s not gonna be as stressful since I know what to expect.