Can you hear me????

There is this playground game that kids play.
They lock hands and at the count of three they try to snap each others fingers off.
You hold out as long as you can or at least longer than the other guy.
The game doesn't end until someone says stop, gets up and cries mercy.
It isn't a fun game.

Now it isn't a game anymore. And we are not kids. You can cry mercy all you want.
But nobody's listening.
It' s just you... screaming
.....into a void.

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you for the music!!

 

One of my favorite songs atm.

 

Nobody’s gonna hold me down
Ya gotta understand
We only have one life

Dilemma

Today I woke up tired again. Was on Skype till 2am. I reached out to a friend I haven't spoken to since I left Phuket. We were very good friends at one point until another party came and messed that up with lies. So I'm happy we had a chance to speak last night. Just clear some things up. Misunderstandings and erasing lies that was meticulously planted by a dickhead.

I was invited to come stay at my friends house. And I'm sooo thinking of taking that offer. After having a super rough couple of months. I'm not a quitter. Never have been. But something's you can't control. And that frustrates me a lot. Would do me good to not be here. If only I could take the boys.
Cant wait to get my own flat. Buy my own flat. And just make it as I want it.
If I'm lucky I will get help from my friend that will come and visit me soon. I think I can persuade him in some way......

Signed a work contract today. And I'm "trying" it out on Wednesday. It's only a temp job but I hope it will generate into a more steady thing.


I found a new song today that I feel in love with. Both music and lyrics are right up my ally.
So let me dedicate this song to the person that I mentioned above.

Me and my friend Nick.

Me at my bar. Do not know what im doing. Funny as tho.

Cute...so cute

Having some fun with the kids

At Liseberg * look at Razmus' face*

Luqas wants this bike soo bad 

 

Me at work.



 

Who is perfect??

This song is close to my heart. I have a specific person in mind. Even have it as the ring signal . As a reminder that Nobody is perfect. Doesn't matter how hard we try, mistakes are bound to be made and the only thing you can do is try to make it up to the person you hurt. Go out of your way.
Thank you....I appreciate the effort. And it's paying off.

Went and saw "Airplanes" yesterday. It's not quite as good as "Cars". But to be fair we did see it in Swedish. It's never as good as in English. Funny enough they didn't even show it in English. WHAT!!??

After the movie I went home with Razmus. Luqas wanted to spend the night at a friends house. So Razmus and I had the evening to ourselves, Which was very nice.
Razmus wanted to bake a cake so he found a recipe he wanted to make. So he wrote it down and baked it *almost by himself* I'm very proud of him as was he of himself too.

After he went to bed I had a couple of hours of overseas Skype call. It was a nice chat. Interesting if anything.
So I kinda got to bed early in the morning. Time difference sucks sometimes, but I'm glad the effort is shown.


I'm leaving you for now with a thought I've been pondering on.

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry.