Missing you...

It's insane how much you can miss people. People you shouldn't even be Missing.

Missing their laughter, their way to put things, their hugs....everything!

I guess It's like they saying goes " you wont miss it till It's gone".

I can only hope that Im as missed!

Interesting day...

After a pretty rough night, with little sleep and excruciating thoughts of what if's, I made breakfast for my kids and sent them to school. By this time I had overcome my fear. Replaced it with aggravation.

I do what I always do to cheer myself up....I put music on and I took a hot shower. Then I hopped down stairs and did My make-up and hair(!). It was really nice to stand at your own make-up table. Still listening to music of course. Thank you Spotify for your mere existance!! Wonderful!

I limped to the bus station -yes, I took the buss today- and went to see my friend Mariella and her baby girl Olivia. Such a cutie. Even though she was strawberry blond. :)

Had a nice chat and I told her about my life, Job and friends in Kamala. She was amazed by some and we laughed at others. I have missed her. We go back 10-11 years. Awesome girl!!

After we Said goodbye, I got a phonecall that I did not expect. Really happy that I decided to answer it. Could very easily not have. Is this a lesson learned??

Got Razmus from school and went to my brothers house. My mom was there (and for you that's been reading My blog for a while knows that I had a fall out with My mom before we moved to Thailand) and she was happy to see the children. That made me happy too.

I was watching my friends son today so I had to go and Pick him up from his pre-school. In the rain. IN THE RAIN!!! ( just wanna make sure u got the pic of me limping in the rain )

Lucky for me Cristoffer had an umbrella ( which you always can stand under ms A ) otherwise I'd be soaked.

Went back to see My mom and chatted with her a long time. The kids Played drums in Cristoffers studio and Played outside. And had ice-cream.
Felt natural to talk to My mom. Talked about Thailand, the future and showed some pic of Thailand. And of all My beautiful friends. You are missed....

Went home had dinner, went back to
My brothers, got some more wonderful phonecalls. And ideas started spinning in My mind. :)

Took a hot shower again and put my robe on, My beloved robe. My robe is hated by others but is very special to me. I cant believe I've waited for a whole week to put it on. SHAME!!

Watched a movie, or half, with Joacim. It was comfy to lay on the sofa and eating cheese doodles with my feet up and a blanket. Really nice...

So yes....today was an interesting day indeed. In soo many ways.

More pictures I found

 

Me. Luqas and my Auntie Hilda

 

My dad is getting inked by my friend at a club

 

Me and my brother

 

Halloween, me and my brother

 

 

 

Raziraz

 

Me

 

Luqas

 

 

 

 

 

First day of school

After the school meeting yesterday we decided to try the school. They don´t teach english in Razmus´ class ( which is bullshit, they should teach english from yr 1 ) so we asked for some extra lessons after school. He stops really early anyway and he is used to have longer days. So hopefully he gets to have english a couple times a week. Or he better..... :)

Took Luqas to school,( Razmus was home sick. He has a nasty cough. And it sticks with him for weeks.) but he wanted to up by himself. He is obviously a big boy now. ( mommy heart crying inside) I went up and spoke to Razmus´ teachers. They seem sweet. They invited me to come and stay with Raziraz his first school day. Hopefully tomorrow. I got excited and gladly accepted.

Had a meeting with my boss after school. Didn´t go as I´d hoped. But it doesn´t matter. I have made up my mind anyway. And I feel good about it.

Joacim drove off with my hoodie so I had to walk home in freezing weather. Thanx for that!! Just had a cardigan on. Limping my way back. Pretty cold when I got home. Body just wanted to shut down.

Had to think of my Belladonna on the beach to feel heat in my heart. Wishing I was there......

Took my first bath in a looong time. A short bath, had to think about my tattoo. But it was beautiful. Soaked in super hot water for approx 20 min. Lovely. Did wonders for my shoulder and knee. But it was difficult to get out of the tub. OMG!! If I could just see myself I would probably laugh my ass off. Hahahahaha..... And no...there will be no skype!

Luqas came home pretty happy. He had made new friends already that had invited him over to their house. Made me happy. For him. He´s got some problems with meeting new people. So I´m proud of him for making the effort to make friends. Way to go Luqas!! :) :)

Went to Maxi for food shopping. Got chanterelles. THAT I have missed if anything. Butter fried with garlic and red onion. Yummy!! So tonight it´s chanterelles on bread with organic tea. Chilling on my favorite sofa. Hope that there is something good on TV.

Insomnia

Even though I've been back for a few days now I still wake up at night and cant go back to sleep.
If It's jetlag or me being in pain....I don't know. So since I dont wanna wake anyone up or have no one else to talk to atm, I might as well blog!

Today we have a meeting with the boys' teachers ( I think ) and I requier that they get taught English at their level. How boring wouldn't that be to sit with kids that doesn't read, speak or write English? I sound like a bitch, huh?! Like that's a bad thing....
So let's see what they have to offer us. :) My kids education is important!

Ran into My friend Daniel today. He told me about his super exciting show he did in Vegas not long ago. Saw a video and it looked amazing. Gotta get My hair done....soon. Looks god awful right now.

Had Anna over for dinner and some drinks. Chili/lime chicken and mojitos. Cant beat that.... :)
We had many laughs and it was sooo nice to talk about old shit. You know like you only can do with friends you have a past with. Felt really good! So thanx my sweet!! :)

Jocke and Luqas went to gekås, You know "billigare än Ullared" :) with Andreas and his kids.
Razmus was sick so we stayed at home. I would have loved to come but since my disability stops me and Raziraz being sick, I'll have to do without. He got some stuff for me anyway. Thank you so much... :)

Get back to you later with what the school Said and if It's acceptable.

Have a good day....

Lost pictures found!! :)

 

Luqas IS the king of rock n roll

 

Me pregnant with Razmus. Fat as...

 

Luqas 6-7weeks old

 

 

Razmus 6-7 weeks old

Love it when u find pictures and it´s like you´ve never seen them before :)

Past and future

Since I got back to Gothenburg I have been re-connecting with my brother. It feels really nice and I hope that we can keep it this way. It's never good to dwell in the past. Look forward, try to make yourself a better person, learn from your misstakes and move on.

Either you fix the problem or you decide It's not worth the effort.

I've been out walking ( limping to be honest ) around My neighbourhood this weekend. Mostly Cause the dr told me to start moving My leg and shoulder. But then My other leg gets messed up.
I really enjoy walking in the sunshine, listening to music or talking on the phone. Clears my head and just breathing in the non polluted air.

Ahhh...how is it possible to miss the nasty smells of Patong?!

Lucky Kamala isn't that bad. :)

Luqas slept at a friends house so It's only Razmus, me and Jocke at home.
Thought we would sleep longer since Razmus can sleep pretty long, but nooo. He is up before 08.00. Yawn!

But I have the most beutiful boys in every way. ( might wanna learn to close the front door though ) and I love them to bits. Or as Luqas Said once around the world and to the universe.

Still sleepy for some reason. Hmmmm..

And hungry. A cup of hot O'boy would be nice. And toast.
Damn, Ima get fat while Im here. :)

Wishing you all a lovely day....