Feeling good...

I've reconsidered my decision. And I'm gonna leave it be. For now. It's time to get back the positive energy. Not everyone is a cheater and a hollow hearted liar. Or a dumb ass bitch.

Today is a good day. A real good day. 

If there's just one piece of advice I can give you, it's this--when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself in 5 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot because the best things in life, they don't come free. However trust comes first and formost. Without trust you've got fuck all..... 

Luqas graduation was this morning. His dad is in Norway enjoying race cars so it was me and razmus that went. 

And the other day I drove to husqvarna

To visit my friends from Phuket. Lena and Bettan. It was so good to see them. Even though I saw them a month ago :) 

Weird seeing them in Sweden. Lena is having a baby in a month. So I brought her some baby clothes and a babybjörn.

It was really nice weather and the live with a view to the largest lake in Sweden. Looks like an ocean. Beautiful. 

I'm going back shortly to spend the night. I guess Bettan wants to drink some sangsom. Lol! And I'd be happy to spend time with them. So msybe next week. However we will be planing a trip to Phuket also. Which is exciting. Going back with them would be a treat. :) 

Had my good friend over for a chat. Sat on the balcony and had some snacks and wine and just talked about everything that's going on in our lives atm. She is great and so much like me. Open and outspoken so we had a great talk and gave advise. She's not thrilled I'm leaving but she knows it's for a good reason. And she wants me to be happy. So it's all good. 

Reality check....

It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier, healthier life. As children we are told to smile, be cheerful, and put on a happy face. As adults we are told to look on the bright side, to make lemonade, and see glasses as half full. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. Your hope can fail, boyfriends can cheat, friends can disappoint. It's in these moments, when you just want to get real, drop the act, and be your true scared unhappy self. 

This is what's happened to me just recently. And I have decided to tell the story about what's been going on the past year. I just need a day or two to gather my thoughts and write it properly. 

Karma is a bitch isn't it!!!