The art of smooching

Kisses are such simple things, we hardly notice them. But if we paid more attention, we'd see that each kiss conveys a meaning all its own. For example, some can say, 'I'm so happy to see you.' Or, 'I didn't realize you'd be here.' Or 'honey, it's time to stop drinking.' Or baby let's have some fun.....
The trick is in knowing how to tell the difference.

The act itself varies. It can mean a husband's or boyfriend's eternal devotion. Or enormous regret. It can symbolize a mother's growing concern. Or a lover's growing passion. But whatever it's meaning, each kiss reflects a basic human need. The need to connect to another human being. This desire is so strong, it's always amazing when some people don't understand it. 

This song is an oldie. But the lyrics remind me of a sad and pathetic person. 

A sucker with no self esteem......

Catching up

Today I had a day off. Which means I spent most of last night after the boys had gone to sleep in my bed ( my doona must be amazing ) speaking and catching up with friends all over the world. There are many things that bind friends together - Sharing a laugh over an embarrassing incident, comforting each other in times of need, finding it in our hearts to forgive. Or give advise seeing it from their point if view. 

I had a 4am chat with my favorite Aussie. Went back to sleep and got woken up by razmus at 8am. Cheers Raz. 

Appreciate it. 

Spent most of my morning in bed. Honestly I rarely lay long in bed but when I treat myself to it I can stay forever. 

Thank god for iPhones. Only time you need to leave the bed is to go to the bathroom. Maybe I should get one of them potty thingies that sick and old people have. Then I don't need to move an inch......

The boys' dad came over to help me put some shelves up and drill the make up dresser in the wall etc. Hopefully I won't need to ask him again. I do appreciate it heaps. I really do. 

My friend Viveca gave me a surprize visit in the arvo. I love surprizes. The pleasant ones if course. Only. 

We had a good chat. Good friends are the ones who tell us the truth about ourselves... even when the truth might be something we're reluctant to admit - that we still have a great deal to learn, that we sometimes need to ask for help, that we maybe overlooking a golden opportunity. Yes, hearing the truth can often set us on a different path, but we never know where that path might take us or who might end up in your life. 

I'm looking forward to the house warming party on Saturday. It's gonna be so nice to see my mates again. Some I haven't seen in ages. So it going to be insane. 

Prepare to get wankered........ :) 

What's life if you can't have a little fun? 

Laugh at yourself and be goofy. 

Sure you should be responsible and serious. But don't forget to have some fun once in a while. Fall in love, dance, drink, be silly and laugh. 

Makes you feel good. Happy. 

Monday ramble....

Of course, it is always right to use our instincts as our guide. You should never set yourself up to be shot down emotionally by someone who doesn’t deserve your trust. But equally, you should not let negative past experiences allow you to believe that it’s not safe to trust again. You should trust people by their actions, not their words. Maybe a person might have a heart of gold. But so does an egg. The fundamental glue that holds any relationship together is....trust. 

Sometimes the innocent get hurt but one by one the guilty will pay. Also known as Karma. Trust is a difficult thing… whether it’s finding the right people to trust or trusting the right people will do the wrong thing. But trusting your heart is the riskiest thing of all. In the end, the only person you can truly trust is yourself

The best proof of love is to trust. I really believe that. To put your faith and trust in another person not to hurt you or break promises. That is an act of love. Don't abuse it if you are give that priceless gift.

I had a call today from Rach. FaceTime. It was so good to see her. The connection was shite but at least we got in contact. God I miss her. She can't make the house warming on Saturday and that sucks. I was hoping she'd make it. I told her about what's going on in my life. And she told me what' s going on in hers. She is like my sister. Love her dearly. I trust her with my boys' lives. 
I hope she gets her pommy bum over here soon. Can't wait to see her. 
But first thing's first. Phuket! 

Babe...all im saying is soi Cowboy and poppers.

Worlds greatest Rachel 2012

Rach and I in Koh Samui 2013

Rachel and I Phiphi Island 2014

    

As of today..

 We don't get much say on how or when life hits us, but we do get to decide how we are gonna act on it. So do it, decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love?? Can you be stronger? kinder? more compassionate? Decide. Breathe in...Breathe out...and decide. I've always said I could handle anything. I was wrong. I've been wrong about heaps of things. But it feels right about one thing, It feels right about this. 
As of today. I decided. 

I had a really shitty night with nightmares and heavy things on my mind. I have been blessed to have my favorite Aussie make my day heaps better. He made me put aside last nights fears and made me look forward to an adventure in the near future. Looking back it's easy to see when a mistake has been made. But if we use our best judgement and listen to our hearts we're more likely to see that we chose wisely and avoid the deepest most painful regret of them all, the regret that comes from letting something amazing pass you by. And I don't want to have regrets. I have had enough of that. 
You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. Not until it's happening. You don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there's not enough time, because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days.

Babe, you have been the inspiration to this post because of our conversation today and the way you stood by me today when I needed it. And you heard it in my voice. I didn't have to say anything. And you actually deleted it. Actions over words. Just as you said. Im not use to getting honest replies or getting the truth as oppose to lies and decite thats's been infecting my life the past year.  
Im glad to been proven wrong. 

I cant wait...... but meanwhile here is a treat for you to watch.