Saturday morning

Woke up fairly painless and went to Surin beach for breakfast with Ms Angela x 2, Hayley, David and J-Wow. The breakfast sucked. Not to mention the banana shake. Yuk! But I love surin so it was worth going anyway.

Was just going to get ready for a lunch date in Patong when it started to rain. NOOOOO!!!!
So now I´m stuck here at the house. Blogging and watching "taken 2".

Need to go to the market today. I am out of chicken. And would love to go to central as well. Need to stock up on things so I have it when my boys get here. I still don´t know the date, And I´m getting really frustrated. Sometimes I wonder if I was drunk or high the entire relationship. Or maybe I should´ve been.......

Sounds like it´s calming down. I might just make it to lunch.

Just want to clarify somethings since I get some rude and childish comments here at times.

Envy is best defined as a resentful emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another's (perceived) superior quality, achievement or possession and wishes that the other lacked it." Envy was one of the most potent causes of unhappiness. Not only is the envious person rendered unhappy by his envy, but they also wish to inflict misfortune on others.
A narcissist may secure a sense of superiority in the face of another person's ability by using contempt to minimize the other person.

So please stop reading my blog if it upsets you. Really, its´s not like you have to read it.

Wishing you all a great Saturday....

Grey doomsday

 It's 2012 12 21 and you know what that means: The world is ending! Sort of. Maybe. Probably not. 

The Mayans never actually predicted an apocalypse. There's nothing in Mayan texts that specifically says "The world is ending on December 21st, 2012." That's just when the long-form version of their calendar runs out. And at the end of this cycle (the 12th cycle), life and society as we know it will be wiped out to start again fresh. But none of the texts ever say, "Yeah, come December 21st, 2012, you are all effed. So use your gift cards now."
 According to The X-Files, the day after the apocalypse is when aliens will finally take over Earth. We know this because Mulder confirms it. Basically, in The X-Files, the theory was that aliens would come the day AFTER the apocalypse because they'd want to take over an empty Earth. And I think we all know better than to doubt The X-Files. 

Anyway....I´m still alive and so are you.

Yesterday was cloudy and it rained on and off. Sucked. But I went into patong anyways. I needed to get some food.
Got stood up twice, lunch and afternoon. I´m over it. 

Went to Patong festival with Max.( Max is a guy from the Gold coast and he is friends with Adam and Sussy. That´s how we met. Always nice to get to know new awesome people ) Bought a lilacy glitter lipgloss and tried to find some christmas presents for the boys. Non of us were drinking last night since Max got totally blind and rocked back home at 07 am. Hahahaha... Hang over delux.

It was a slow night at work. Probably since it was the last day of the festival and everyone was hanging out by the beach or something. Or the people that came were really drunk. I last night I couldn´t be bothered to care about them. You know some of these kids ( yeah, like 17 18 yr old kids ) gets so drunk they can hardly walk. Something for you parents to think about when you let your kids go abroad. No, they aint going to hang at the beach and do treeking. They are going to get smashed drinking buckets. And hook up with random guys. Just saying!!! Pack condoms, antabuse and peppar spray.

Got home at about 2.30. Was up chatting with friends till like 04.30. And I´m tired. Might take a nap later.

It´s grey out today so beach time doesn´t sound very appealling. Maybe a movie and some ice.

                                                 Christmas pic from back in the day.......

Close to christmas

I am going to spend christmas alone for the first time ever. No family. I can´t describe how much that hurts. My children were suppose to be here for christmas but their dad have other plans. Which is totally frustrating because I can´t do anything about it. Their dad is evidently going to go with them and that means that my children have to wait until their dad gets his christmas vacation. Never mind that the ticket price is twice as high and that I have to wait for my babies. I´m really fuming over this. It´s been a long and nasty fight over this. Threats about not sending my children over. So I do what I have to do to get them here. Shut up, pay and wait!! So here I am, still clueless on what date they are arriving. My x have no communication skills.

I feel lonely and blue. I´m missing them so much. Hopefully their aunty Angela still have some new year days off so we can rent a car and do some fun stuff when they get here.

Anyway. More and more people are leaving Kamala to spend christmas with family and then come back after new years, Some come sooner some come later.

My wish for next year is to finally move on and shake all the seamy things that have happened. Be happy and love life again. Get my children here and get that job I´ve applied for. That would be sweet....

What a week...

New week, a new chance to start over.

It has been a rough week for me. I have been sick. I am never sick so I just died a bit for 2 days.
Im still not 100% but hey I´m a swedish viking :)

My friend Jody and her 2 beautiful children went back to Australia on Saturday. It´s really weird not having them here. Jody has been one of my closest friends here. We have shared a lot this past 18 months. I miss her heaps. Hopefully she will be back sometime early next year.

I have been working the whole weekend. Both Friday and Saturday was massive. Had a lot of people and I actually took a tuk tuk on Friday.Sunday was a bit quieter. Only a small group of Swedish people came.

It´s been raining here as well on and off. That sucks. But today it was pretty nice. A little cloudy but nice.

Tonight is my day off and I am going to spend it at Aussie pub and the charity night. We won last time but I´m not sure we can win without ms Jody :) What am I saying...of course we can win. We kick ass!! Have to build up my confidence.

I got some very sad news last week.

My favorite little girl from school earlier this year has leukemia. My heart just stoped when I got the news.
I took care of her for a couple of months. She was only 2 at the time. I love this girl and she loved me. She always held my hand and wanted to sit besides me or on my lap.
So life is really unfair and I think about her and her family everyday. But she is a headstrong girl so I know she will get through this. She is a winner.