I love myself...

The boys have left. Time has gone by so fast. A month already. And I've been here close to 3 months. Doesn't feel like it at all. My knee is loving the heat. And so is my soul. Healing at its best.

It's been a joy having the boys here. They have loved being here. Experiencing Australia has been good. They've learned and seen stuff that they will cherish for the rest of their lives. Trav and the boys got along so great. Better than I'd expected. I haven't had a lot of boyfriends since I split up with their dad 2011. I've had 3 including now. I don't believe in rebounds, one night stands and switching partners left, right and centre. You only introduce your chidren to a person you feel is going to remain in your life. Hmmm, that's my opinion of it. Each to her own, right!!

The flight from Doha was delayed so they missed their connecting flight in London. 

I called their pick up to inform about it and somehow it turned into an argument that it was my fault the plane was delayed. I didn't know I had the awesome power of delaying flights half across the world. If anyone needs to fuck someone's trip up holla at me and I'll sort you out with a massive delay. Praise Jesus Hallelulja......Moron!! 

And it was sworn to me that I will never be helped again and also will not collect the boys ever again if I want to bring them overseas. 

I'm sorry but isn't it also for the boys? To give them the rare experience of seeing other countries and cultures? If the tables were turned I would not see it as me helping him out. I'd see it as I'm helping my sons out. But we are all different..clearly. 

The luggage went missing too. So I've spent better part of my morning yesterday trying to sort it out. It was probably for the best anyway as it was declared to me that the car only had room for one suitcase which I later found out from my son, was due to a Thai girl brought along to pick up the boys. (?) 

After many hours of trying to get a hold of my ex or son to get a ticket number I eventually got a hold of my ex, telling me the luggage has been located. Thank lawd for that. Christmas gifts and other personal items of sentimental value are in those suitcases. I mean aussie thongs and aussie caps for crying out loud. Where can I get that in Gothenburg??

We took the boys to the local water/fun park in Sorrento on their last day. Great for kids $50 for the whole day and you can walk in and out as much as you want. The beach was just outside too.

Trav went back to work yesterday. A mining camp about 6 hour drive from here. I can only imagine what a bogan dump it'll be. Hahahahaha....

So 2 weeks by myself. I'm considering going back to Phuket as I will have bugger all to do here really now that the boys gone home. Doing my head in is not something I wish to do. I always found it easy to meet new people and make friends. What is this?? Oh that's right..one needs to be out in public to meet people.

I want to spend Aussie day here tho. It was awesome in Phuket so I can imagine it being rockstar here. 

Confused over this situation in whole. So many things have happened and I'm trying to sort my thoughts and feelings out. Sometimes we have to get lost to find each other and sometimes we find each other, only to get lost all over again.
It's hard to give second chances.. A chance to do it again knowing what you know now, what you’ve learned. A chance to do it completely different. A chance to right the wrongs, to correct the mistakes. A chance to try and start over from scratch. Can you do that???

A relationship with someone who is interested in you. I don’t mean someone who thinks you’re hot and beautiful.( of course that does matter...going both ways ) I mean someone who wants to know every insignificant detail about you. Someone who wants to read every word you write.(And I do write heaps don't I??) Someone who wants to find every scar upon your body and learn where each one came from. 

Someone who wants to know your favorite wine and what you eat and don't, and which quotes resonates deep inside when you hear them. There is a difference between attraction and interest. Huge difference. It's also a difference between staying with someone because it's comfortable and actually staying because you can't see a life without that person. 

Who is the love of your life??

A huge thank you to Travis for having the boys and being such a great sport about it. The boys loved it and as you know they didn't want to go back to Sweden. Hope you had as much fun as they did.